I Refuse

I'm doing it again
I'm pulling away
I'm fighting the urge
I want to say
My nerves are on fire
But I'm digging in
I may never
feel this way again
I know that I'm quiet
compared to before
it's only because
I'm choking on this fear
the what if's
they've made a home here
in my head
in my heart
I shoo them away
they won't depart
I want to stay
to see you for the first time
to feel your eyes burn through mine
I want to stay
I want to see
I want it to be everything
We both think it could be
I want to stay
I plan to stay
so remember and don't give up
I'm fighting the urge
But it's getting stronger
I want to stay
I need to stay
I simply refuse to run away
I want to stay
I want to see
I want it to be everything
we are both afraid to say
I want to stay
I want to see
I want it to be

Lost in Recollections

Today I find myself a prisoner of memory. I find myself missing people that I used to be so close to, people I still hold dear to me. Everywhere I turn something reminds me of one of them. A flash of red, a magic card, the scent of garnier shampoo. I even saw a t-shirt today on a random stranger that made me think back to a day when all I did was talk for hours with a friend that I never see anymore, and I wonder why. Why, when everything is turning around for me, when my winds are changing and my goals are achievable, why now, what is it about these people that I can't let go of?

This is the sermon that Jerry Harris Preached this morning (3/1/2009). All I have to say is Amen, and watch.


The Scriptures used are Hebrews 1:1-3
1 Long ago, at many times and(A) in many ways, God spoke to our fathers by the prophets, 2 but(B) in these last days(C) he has spoken to us by(D) his Son, whom he appointed(E) the heir of all things,(F) through whom also he created(G) the world. 3 He is the radiance of the glory of God and(H) the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power.(I) After making purification for sins,(J) he sat down(K) at the right hand of the Majesty on high,


so, here's the sermon
My Priest Week One Sermon


below are links to the Oprah video, and informational sites on The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (Mormons), Islam and The Secret so you can read/view for yourself if you would like.


Orprah on Jesus

Mormon/ Latter-Day Saints

Islam

The Secret

Never Give Up

The biggest mistake we can make as people, as friends, is giving up on each other. Giving up on ourselves, yeah, everyone can do that from time to time. But don't give up on each other, no matter what you are facing, you may be the lifeline they need. No matter how hard it is, or how personal it gets. It's always worth it.

You are worth it. You always have been. Always will be. I will never give up on you.