The horribly awkward, not quite good, not a totall disaster day...

oh what a day. Was yesterday. Full of all sorts of fun. Drama from one end of the end to the other. Will wonders never cease? lol. I'll begin with an apology to certain people who might end up in trouble for reading this. Sorry, in advance.

Lately I've been feeling really pent up, and it's coming out. In ways that it shouldn't be. I've kind of developed a 'whatever' attitude. Because you see, I'm in pain. I'm sad. I'm angry. And I haven't been talking about it. I've been focusing on other people, and I'm about ready to pop. Just a small little push is all it would take. So reader beware, you have been warned. I think I will play in the rain some this weekend. It usually helps.

So, why was yesterday such a schmorgishboard of fun? Well I'll tell you, it all starts on Tuesday, when I was down at Heartland for a little karaoke fun. In walks his tallness (as he will be refer ed to, not to be confused with the singular him/he) which made my night. I proceeded to flirt with him as I always do, he finally started to flirt back, we made some headway. He wanted to know if I would be out on Thursday, he made it sound like a reason to show. So i did. Let's just say that it didn't go quite like I had hoped, and leave it at that. I will talk to him later, it will be fine.

Earlier on in the day, I received an unexpected visit for him. That was fine. It all turned out well enough, there was phone call later in the day to check on my well being due to a status change (to be covered in the next paragraph). And I didn't feel like talking. So he didn't push it, and instead placed an order. Oh yes, I was at work. Then there was a nice 2hr phone conversation in the wee hours of the morning. In which there was a lot of honesty, and a lot of walls. So be it.

While I was at work the drama began. There was an IM, convo with the bff, and a phone convo with the roomie, and well, it all seems to be working out, but my goodness, was it stressful. I hate being in the middle.

Yesterday was just plan awkward and abnormal, and it was not helped by consumption of the Crown Royal, although that was indeed quite tasty/